Well the best part was we went and saw our new puppy today. He’s only a little over a week old, so eyes and ears are not open. But he, and his 2 brothers are so cute. That was the highlight of the day.
After seeing the puppy we came home and I started working on something, and got a message from my Bio father. As many of you have helped me with was dealing with him lurking. I ultimately sent an FB message to him, 6 weeks or so ago.
I was caught so off guard that I had to go just sit out in the sun with the dog. I showed my wife the message. Sadly she couldn’t add much advice, but she’s at least supportive. He just lives a couple of hours up the road from us. On one hand I want to head straight up there and talk. On the other, I’m scared to death of doing something. Perhaps I should be more afraid of doing nothing. Regardless, the ball is now in my court. I have 2 half siblings, and perhaps some nieces and nephews that are closer than Utah to us.
I went on a ride today, normally it’d been for training, but today was more for clearing my head. Unsurprisingly my head is not any more clear. I suppose at the very least I should talk to him about family health issues.
I was so mad at him for so long, now, I’m not. Somewhere along the way, you guys helped me get rid of that. I’m conflicted, should I or shouldn’t I meet him. I think when everything is said and done I will. I don’t know if I’ll do so the first time with my wife, but I don’t really know.
As you can see, I can’t even get a coherent thought out right now. For that I apologize.